36 Hours Of Fear....Prayers....Hope

.......life did not prepare me to be a MOTHER of a teenage boy.....PERIOD.....never mind being a mother of teen with Type 1 diabetes who is in denial or rebelling.....or whatever it is he's been doing to make my life miserable.....living hell....stressful......scary....emotional......roller-coaster......for past 8 months.

I am not going to tell you How It Feels To Live With Type 1 Diabetes.......because.....I DON'T KNOW....

I am going to tell you How It Feels To Have A Child With Type 1 Diabetes.....teenager....to be exact....

This is me....in a nutshell.....since December 2005......

Scared.....FRUSTRATED.....angry......emotional.....PARANOID......exhausted.....stressed..... 

OVERPROTECTIVE......tired.....hopeful.....LOST!


Having a child with Type 1 diabetes means.....unpredictable.....you never know what each day will bring....many SLEEPLESS nights sitting beside your child's bed and watching them....checking their blood glucose....administering Glucagon.....treating lows....waking then up in the middle of the night and making then eat most of the time against their will....

....it means being prepared.....for EVERYTHING.....being overprotective and making sure they don't get hurt (even little scratches and bruises)......making sure they don't get sick.....

.....knowing and planning every food.....every meal.....every treat that goes into their mouth....AT ALL TIMES.....knowing the exact amount of carbohydrates.....making sure insulin is given for EVERYTHING.....making sure blood glucose is checked before every piece of FOOD enters their mouth...

Did I mention the amount of NEEDLES and finger POKES that needs to be given.....EVERYDAY.....without break....without day off......without vacation....?

Yes.....that is only a little part of having child with Type 1 diabetes.....

Now....WHY am I writing this post?.......because something happened yesterday.....something UNPREDICTABLE......something SCARY......something that is part of having a teenager with Type 1 diabetes....

.....something that is part of my life like it or not....ever since my child was diagnosed with this awful disease in December 2005.

......SOMETHING I wasn't expecting.....something I wasn't prepared for....something I DO NOT WANT to live through EVER AGAIN.....

Yes.....I was not prepared....because that's diabetes for you......YOU NEVER KNOW.....

Now  I am going to sleep after being awake for 34 hours making sure my child is SAFE.....in the middle of the campground.....without my husband....in another country.....

Later I will come back and share with you one of the most horrifying experiences of my life.....

......an EXPERIENCE that hopefully will help my diabetic teen realize How Precious Life Is .....and How Much He Is  Loved.....

See you all tomorrow.....